Maniak´s Blogg

I can't tell you what it really is. I can only tell you what it feels like. And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe. I can't breathe. But I still fight while I can fight. As long as the wrong feels right. It's like I'm in flight. High of a love. Drunk from the hate. It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer. I sufficate and right before im about to drown, she resuscitates me. She fucking hates me, and I love it. Wait, where you going? I'm leaving you! No you ain't, come back! We're running right back. Here we go again. It's so insane. Cause when it's going good it's going great. I'm Superman with the wind in his bag. She's Lois Lane. But when it's bad it's awful. I feel so ashamed. I snap. Who's that dude?. I don't even know his name! I laid hands on her. I'll never stoop so low again. I guess I don't know my own strength.

Have you ever loved somebody so much you can barely breathe when you're with them. You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em. Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills. Used to get 'em, now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em. You swore you've never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em, now you're in each other's face spewing venom. And these words when you spit 'em. You push, pull each other's hair. Scratch, claw, bit 'em, throw 'em down. Pin 'em. So lost in the moments when you're in 'em. It's the rage that took over. It controls you both. So they say it's best to go your separate ways. Guess that they don't know you, cause today that was yesterday. Yesterday is over. It's a different day. Sound like broken records playin' over. But you promised her next time you'll show restraint. You don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game. But you lied again. Now you get to watch her leave out the window. Guess that's why they call it window pane.

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean and we fall back into the same patterns, same routine. But your temper's just as bad as mine is. You're the same as me. But when it comes to love you're just as blinded. Baby please come back. It wasn't you. Baby it was me. Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems. Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. All I know is I love you too much to walk away though. Come inside. Pick up your bags off the sidewalk. Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk. Told you this is my fault. Look me in the eyeball. Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the dry wall. Next time, there will be no next time. I apologize. Even though I know it's lies. I'm tired of the games. I just want her back. I know I'm a liar. If she ever tries to fucking leave again. I'mma tie her to the bed and set the house on fire.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn. But that's alright. Because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry. But that's alright. Because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie.