Maniak´s Blogg

We touch I feel a rush. We clutch, it is not much, but it´s enough to make me wonder whats in store for us. It´s lust, it´s torcherous. You must be a socerous cause you just did the impossible. Gain my trust, dont play games, it will be dangerous if you fuck me over, cause if I get burnt imma show you what it´s like to hurt, cause i been treated like dirt before. And love is evil, spell it backwards ill show you.

Nobody knows me, Im cold, walk down this road all alone. It´s no ones fault but my own. It´s the path I have chosen to go. Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever. I have tried in this department but i aint had no luck with this. It sucks but it´s exactly what i thought it would be like. Trying to start over. I got a hole in my heart, Im some kind of emotional rollercoaster something i wont go on til you toy with my emotion, so it´s over. It´s like an explosion everytime i hold you, I wasnt joking when i told you. You take my breathe away. Your a supernova.

I do whatever it takes. When im with you I get the shakes. My body aikes. When i aint with you I have zero strength. Theres no limit on how far I would go, no boundries no lengths. Promise me, if I cave in and break and leave myself open, that i wont be making a mistake.

Im a space bound rocketship in your heart spittin morn. And i aim it right at you. 250 thousand miles aim a keen eye right at you.

I can't tell you what it really is. I can only tell you what it feels like. And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe. I can't breathe. But I still fight while I can fight. As long as the wrong feels right. It's like I'm in flight. High of a love. Drunk from the hate. It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer. I sufficate and right before im about to drown, she resuscitates me. She fucking hates me, and I love it. Wait, where you going? I'm leaving you! No you ain't, come back! We're running right back. Here we go again. It's so insane. Cause when it's going good it's going great. I'm Superman with the wind in his bag. She's Lois Lane. But when it's bad it's awful. I feel so ashamed. I snap. Who's that dude?. I don't even know his name! I laid hands on her. I'll never stoop so low again. I guess I don't know my own strength.

Have you ever loved somebody so much you can barely breathe when you're with them. You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em. Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills. Used to get 'em, now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em. You swore you've never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em, now you're in each other's face spewing venom. And these words when you spit 'em. You push, pull each other's hair. Scratch, claw, bit 'em, throw 'em down. Pin 'em. So lost in the moments when you're in 'em. It's the rage that took over. It controls you both. So they say it's best to go your separate ways. Guess that they don't know you, cause today that was yesterday. Yesterday is over. It's a different day. Sound like broken records playin' over. But you promised her next time you'll show restraint. You don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game. But you lied again. Now you get to watch her leave out the window. Guess that's why they call it window pane.

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean and we fall back into the same patterns, same routine. But your temper's just as bad as mine is. You're the same as me. But when it comes to love you're just as blinded. Baby please come back. It wasn't you. Baby it was me. Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems. Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. All I know is I love you too much to walk away though. Come inside. Pick up your bags off the sidewalk. Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk. Told you this is my fault. Look me in the eyeball. Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the dry wall. Next time, there will be no next time. I apologize. Even though I know it's lies. I'm tired of the games. I just want her back. I know I'm a liar. If she ever tries to fucking leave again. I'mma tie her to the bed and set the house on fire.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn. But that's alright. Because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry. But that's alright. Because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie.

Allright lets pretend I never picked up a pen. Lets pretend things would have been no different. Pretend he procrastinated, had no motivation. Pretend he just made excuses that were so paper thin they could blow away with the wind. You’re never gonna make it, makes no sense to play the game there ain’t no way that you’ll win. Pretend he just stayed outside all day and played with his friends. Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend and it wasn’t time to move and schools were changing again. He wasn’t socially awkward and just strange as a kid. He had a father and his mother wasn’t crazy as shit. And he never dreamed he could rip stadiums and just lazy as shit. Fuck a talent show in a gymnasium bitch, you won’t amount to shit quit daydreaming kid. You need to get your cranium checked, you thinking like an alien it just ain’t realistic. Now pretend they ain’t just make him angry with this shit and there was no one he could even aim when he’s pissed it. And his alarm went off to wake him off but he didn’t make it to the rap Olympics. Slept through his plane and he missed it. He’s gon’ have a hard time explaining. Cuz he never risked shit. He hopes and he wished it but it didn’t fall in his lap so he ain’t even here. He pretends that:

Airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now. Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now.